Hello. My name is Freyja.
I am the eldest and only daughter of my father and mother.
I am currently studying at a prestigious university.
My family is very proud of me.
They would usually brag about me with their friends.
I like a lot of things under the sun:
Literature, books, poetry, theatre, movies, tv series, acting, and writing;
Anime, manga, K-pop, and K-drama;
Food, cooking, baking, and eating;
Fashion, designing, makeup, and make-overs;
Sports, gaming, and traveling.
You would remember me as the cheerful girl.
Always the one making everyone happy.
The happy-go-lucky and carefree type.
That friend that will always have your back.
A great listener to all of your problems.
Always willing to help you in the time of crisis.
I'm that friend that would hang out with you anytime you ask.
That is what a lot of people think of me.
Or should I say, what I portray to other people.
Or better yet, what I would like people to think of me.
I will introduce myself again so you'll know me how I know myself.
This will be a first.
Hello. My name is Freyja.
I am the eldest and only daughter of my father and mother.
I have a younger brother who is fours years younger than me.
My parents are separated - well, not legally.
And I live with my father and grandmother.
My family (referring to the relatives I live with) expects a lot from me.
I have a lot of secrets hidden from the sun.
Talking to people especially higher ranked people makes me very anxious and nervous;
As much as possible, I don't want to talk to them outside business and school hours.
I really despise math and anything involved with math such as physics, trigonometry, calculus, and accounting;
It really isn't my passion when it comes to those areas.
Procrastination is the only thing that I do constantly;
Thinking back as to why I do this, doing things I'm not really passionate about is the first reason.
There are random times that I would break down and cry a lot;
Thinking about how stupid, dumb, useless, and unworthy I am.
I always feel empty every single day;
The cheerful girl everybody knows is a fraud.
I have thought countless of times of how much I was better off dead;
To the point, I'm not going to pass the opportunity of being in a deadly accident when the time comes.
I am actually afraid of sleeping - just the plain act of sleeping;
Not knowing if I could wake up the next day at the right time is terrifying for me.
There are times that I would prefer to stay inside the house for consecutive days;
Going out and meeting people makes me exhausted.
I would log out of my social media accounts to cut out any form of communication;
Being in constant interaction is toxic and draining.
My eating habits are not very constant;
I would purposely eat a lot one day and the following day I would starve myself.
I have cut myself a lot of times before;
Not because I want to die in that manner but the pain I feel in cutting makes me feel alive.
The degree program I am currently taking up is "a choice out of no choice";
My grandmother always wanted me to take up a business course.
Home actually doesn't feel like home anymore to me;
I wonder what is the real definition of family.
Actually, I don't have a lot of friends.
I'm that girl who doesn't have a permanent set of friends I could consider
I'm lucky to have a best friend for almost 13 years now;
But she's studying a hundred miles away from me.
I don't attend to parties, birthdays, outings, and gatherings;
For the sole reason that people have forgotten about inviting me.
There was one time a friend asked me, "Why weren't you at my birthday party?"
"Oh. There was a party? I didn't know. I haven't received any invites." I said.
"I'm sorry. I really thought I have invited you already." was answered back by my "It's fine."
Being the kind and supportive friend has its cons;
People would only and only remember me when they need something from me;
And I am left to handle my problems on my own.
Hello. My name is Freyja.
Nice to meet you.
I am the eldest and only daughter of my father and mother.
I am currently studying at a prestigious university.
My family is very proud of me.
They would usually brag about me with their friends.
I like a lot of things under the sun:
Literature, books, poetry, theatre, movies, tv series, acting, and writing;
Anime, manga, K-pop, and K-drama;
Food, cooking, baking, and eating;
Fashion, designing, makeup, and make-overs;
Sports, gaming, and traveling.
You would remember me as the cheerful girl.
Always the one making everyone happy.
The happy-go-lucky and carefree type.
That friend that will always have your back.
A great listener to all of your problems.
Always willing to help you in the time of crisis.
I'm that friend that would hang out with you anytime you ask.
That is what a lot of people think of me.
Or should I say, what I portray to other people.
Or better yet, what I would like people to think of me.
I will introduce myself again so you'll know me how I know myself.
This will be a first.
Hello. My name is Freyja.
I am the eldest and only daughter of my father and mother.
I have a younger brother who is fours years younger than me.
My parents are separated - well, not legally.
And I live with my father and grandmother.
My family (referring to the relatives I live with) expects a lot from me.
I have a lot of secrets hidden from the sun.
Talking to people especially higher ranked people makes me very anxious and nervous;
As much as possible, I don't want to talk to them outside business and school hours.
I really despise math and anything involved with math such as physics, trigonometry, calculus, and accounting;
It really isn't my passion when it comes to those areas.
Procrastination is the only thing that I do constantly;
Thinking back as to why I do this, doing things I'm not really passionate about is the first reason.
There are random times that I would break down and cry a lot;
Thinking about how stupid, dumb, useless, and unworthy I am.
I always feel empty every single day;
The cheerful girl everybody knows is a fraud.
I have thought countless of times of how much I was better off dead;
To the point, I'm not going to pass the opportunity of being in a deadly accident when the time comes.
I am actually afraid of sleeping - just the plain act of sleeping;
Not knowing if I could wake up the next day at the right time is terrifying for me.
There are times that I would prefer to stay inside the house for consecutive days;
Going out and meeting people makes me exhausted.
I would log out of my social media accounts to cut out any form of communication;
Being in constant interaction is toxic and draining.
My eating habits are not very constant;
I would purposely eat a lot one day and the following day I would starve myself.
I have cut myself a lot of times before;
Not because I want to die in that manner but the pain I feel in cutting makes me feel alive.
The degree program I am currently taking up is "a choice out of no choice";
My grandmother always wanted me to take up a business course.
Home actually doesn't feel like home anymore to me;
I wonder what is the real definition of family.
Actually, I don't have a lot of friends.
I'm that girl who doesn't have a permanent set of friends I could consider
I'm lucky to have a best friend for almost 13 years now;
But she's studying a hundred miles away from me.
I don't attend to parties, birthdays, outings, and gatherings;
For the sole reason that people have forgotten about inviting me.
There was one time a friend asked me, "Why weren't you at my birthday party?"
"Oh. There was a party? I didn't know. I haven't received any invites." I said.
"I'm sorry. I really thought I have invited you already." was answered back by my "It's fine."
Being the kind and supportive friend has its cons;
People would only and only remember me when they need something from me;
And I am left to handle my problems on my own.
Hello. My name is Freyja.
Nice to meet you.
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